Journal Entry 1

The beginning of this week has just been crazy. After Alec (my boyfriend) left from spending the weekend with me, everything seemed to lose a little bit of color, and it took more to make me laugh. As someone who was more excited than ever to move away from home, I think my first wave of home sickness hit around Monday afternoon. To be honest, I don't miss my house, the smell of my mom, or my big bed (okay, I miss having a big bed). I honestly just miss what fall was like with all of my boys. Fall on the central coast is not only where big sweaters and blankets come out, it's time that you go to the beach to feel like it's still summer.

 (left to right: Adam, Alec, Jake, Myself, Russell)

(myself and Alec)

Here in Turlock fall so far seems like a kind of Russian Roulette with cold weather. I miss my friends so much more than I thought I would and thanksgiving seems like it's getting farther and farther away from me. School seems to be getting more and more strenuous, classes are adding on random hours and study sessions and...... *deep breath*

School is good in this way though, the more there is to do the less time I have to miss my boys at home. I will see them sooner than I can perceive right now but I will see them again. I hope I can take more of this week to get more into my classes not only right now but prepare for classes i'm going to have in the winter and spring.

What do you miss about fall in your hometown?

What was it like being homesick for the first time in college? how did you deal with it?

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Ten Things I Learned My First Semester of College (Before Finals)

1. Not everyone becomes best friends with their roommates. Luckily, my roommate and I have become extremely close, but it's evident that some of our other friends at school were not so lucky. 
2. You can only be responsible for the messes you've made. I mean this both in the literal and figurative sense. Every time I make a mess in our kitchen, I make sure to clean it up (with a few exceptions). And it is not my job to clean up the mess of anyone else. (this also applies to things like group projects and study sessions)
3. The concept of sharing is just important now as it was in kindergarten. Nobody likes that person who doesn't let you borrow something you need, something as simple as a bobby pin or a flat iron when yours stops working. Another person that nobody likes is that person who thinks that once you share your cheesits with thinks you're also cool with you sharing some of your cereal without you knowing about it. A good knowledge of boundaries and sharing is needed to be a good roommate.
4. Boundaries in general. I can fart in front of my roommate. I cannot fart in front of my next door suite-mate. Some people do not have these sets of boundaries. Nuff said.
5. Studying is important, and it actually feels good to study. In high school I don't remember studying half as hard for anything as I do now. I cannot describe the feeling of getting a 97% on a mid-term I studied for for about 3 hours a day for 2 weeks. I'm basically paying thousands of dollars to study, might as well feel good about it!
6. Being on a first-name basis with the people in the financial office is necessary. If I had not talked to the people in the financial aid office as much as I did, I would literally not be enrolled in any classed this semester. 
7. I was a lot more ready than I thought I would be. Before my move, I felt doomed. I felt lost because I thought that school was going to make me crumble like high school did. I was scared to be away from my boyfriend any longer than I already had been and that long distance was going to be impossible. Its been months since school started and, suffice to say, I am loving college life, and being long distance has given me so many opportunities to meet people when we visit each other.
8. Don't ignore people telling you to go out and try something new. I was blessed with an outgoing roommate and boyfriend. Without them I know I wouldn't be as happy with life as I am now
9. It's really not scary to go to the gym and get healthy. My anxiety crippled me from going out and working out, but after gaining 12 lbs in the first 2 months of being in school I had to get out of my comfort zone. And guess what, everyone at the gym is trying to do the same thing, work out. Thats it. 
10. I've never been so thankful to be where I am in life. Not only am I lucky enough to be getting higher education as a woman in America, I get to pursue something I love. I also have an amazing cast of friends and family that support me, which I will be forever grateful for.

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Welcome to my blog, Marie is Finally Adulting, I am Marie, and this is your first-person look at how i'm growing up. (or as i'd like to call, "adulting") As of today, October 26th, 2015 I am 18 years old and almost half way through my first year of college at California State University, Stanislaus. I'm Majoring in Art History (one of the only Art History majors in my whole school, I may add.) and I love every second of learning about art.

When i'm not memorizing the order of Greek columns or endlessly scrolling through tumblr, i'm usually watching Youtube or taking Buzzfeed quizzes.... Oh you were wondering what I do when i'm not on my computer? um... 

Oh! I am an avid music lover and collector. My music taste tends to be described as, "music that plays in the last scene of a YA movie" if that helps you get a sense of what I'm always listening to. I'd say when i'm not listening to music i'm watching music being made. I'm just about addicted to watching musicians play (which may have something to do with my 3 year relationship with a Jazz Performance major) and if I could become a professional coffee shop band connoisseur, I would drop out right now. 

So if you're wondering, "Wow, I think I could name 3 people who sound exactly like this girl," you're probably right. But I think you're getting the wrong picture. I'm here to not just keep a diary of my life, but maybe help people who have been through things similar to what i've been through. As a daughter of two moms, comes from a military family, and someone who has suffered from severe depression and anxiety, as well as someone who struggles daily with things like motivation, body positivity, and the hardships of a long distance relationship. I hope that my blog can create a sense of hope or comfort, and let people know they're not alone. I hope I can be a voice that tells the world that our generation has a strong voice. 

Until next time, Marie.